Yolanda Hadid has once again candidly spoken out about her ongoing struggle with Lyme disease, reflecting on the incredibly low points of her battle, as well as the impact that it has had on her children.
The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star, 53, admitted her chronic Lyme-induced pain became so unbearable, it almost took away her will live.
The model matriarch revealed she wanted to die, but was brought back to reality when she thought of her three children, two of whom also suffer with the invisible condition.
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Believe me: Yolanda Hadid, 53, reveals her toughest moments in her battle with Lyme disease in candid video interview, and shares how she helps her children who also suffer with it
The highs and lows: The Dutch model confesses the disease made her contemplate death but her children kept her grounded, a story she reveals in her new book Believe Me
In a video for InStyle, Yolanda opened up and said she was desperate in her years long struggle with chronic Lyme disease that pushed her to the darkest moment of her life.
‘I was naked in the ocean and just feeling so sick and at the end of my rope, that I was just trying to be one with the universe,’ she revealed.
‘It was like, Okay just take me, I cannot live one more day with this pain,’ she confessed of the incredibly somber moment.
The mother regained her strength, however, when she thought about her children Gigi, 22, Bella, 20, and Anwar, 18, the latter two of whom also suffer from the same tick-transmitted disease.
‘But in that same moment I also had a flash of my three children, going like no, that is such a selfish move to just let go and quit,’ she explained.
The mother confessed this moment and many more in her book Believe Me: My Battle with the Invisible Disability of Lyme Disease released on Tuesday and stepped out arm in arm with her three children for a book signing in New York the following day.
Family support: Yolanda Hadid and children Gigi, 22, Bella, 20, and Anwar, 18, are all smiles at the reality TV star’s Believe Me book singing in New York City on Wednesday
Mama’s gal: Gigi smiled with her mom to support her with a matching black and grey outfit
Number one fan: Bella shared snaps of her mother’s book debut on Instagram in support
In her book, she explains in the interview, she discussed how her daughter Bella suffers with the disease, and despite jet setting across the globe for high fashion modelling gigs- the young Vogue cover star often returned home crying in pain.
‘This child suffers every day, seven days a week. But it’s really hard for people to understand because she forces herself, pushes herself to go to work, and I have her at home crying and in pain and I have to treat her. It’s very deceiving in a way,’ she explained on the secret side of Bella’s career.
The blonde Dutch model went on to explain that her son Anwar is a victim to the disease as well.
‘The symptoms of Lyme disease can be anything. For Anwar he had this sinus infection all the time and joint pain,’ she said.
‘Oh you’re growing,’ she said of the lofty phrase people used to cast aside his symptoms. But Yolanda knew that his infections meant something much more grave.
‘You go through the whole system so many times until, as a mom, you have to follow your intuition. It’s not normal for a child to always have a sinus infection. We really have to look at our children from a perspective of oh, what if the doctor isn’t right?’ she shared.
Although her mother’s intuition was at its highest peak, it might not have been so high for ex-husband David Foster.
Long road to healing: Yolanda is known for sharing her journey steps on Instagram such as the above snap where she she just finished a cavitation operation
Family first: Children Bella and Anwar, who also suffer from Lyme disease, cuddle with their mom for a heart-warming snap on Yolanda’s Instagram
Momma’s little boy: Yolanda was alarmed for her young model son Anwar when he had perpetual sinus infections that she realized were really Lyme symptoms
Slowly and surely: Yolanda plays cards with friends after a Tvam surgery in 2016
When asked on his shocking statement, ‘Your sick card is up,’ she responded with composure and peace.
‘David and I had a wonderful seven year relationship that was great. It’s really hard to be a chronically-ill person for multiple years but it’s also really hard to be the caregiver of that person,’ she said.
She explained that her book is a message to encourage other couples that suffer with chronic diseases as she and David did.
‘We all say things when we’re hurt that we don’t really mean, it’s real life and the only reason I share this is because there are hundreds of thousands of couples that go through this,’ she added.
She shared she is ‘grateful’ for her years of marriage with the Canadian musician and that her glitzy lifestyle poisoned her body.
‘I had so many toxins coming into my body on a daily basis. Botox at lunch time – what was I thinking?’ she confessed.
But she revealed that her glamorous Beverly Hills lifestyle and subsequent battle with Lyme disease taught her ‘not to be vain anymore.’
‘The only thing that matters in the morning when you wake up is that you’re healthy, and you can actually get out of bed and live life,’ she added.